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Pregnancy Troubles and Update

  First I would like to say thank you to all of the people that have still been giving me some traffic on this blog although I haven't been very consistent this last month.  Honestly, this pregnancy has not been the best for me. Even this morning I am already worn out and my body feels like it can't handle much. I just feel really lightheaded and extremely tired and I'm not sure exactly why I'm feeling this way. The doctor has told me that it's due to my low blood pressure and although he's a doctor I don't really believe that to be true because my blood pressure has always been low. I've also never had to deal with this before during any pregnancy so I'm not really sure how to handle it especially now with still having to take care of two small children. To be honest, I'm not really sure how some women do this so many times but I know that this one is it for me.  No more after this! The papers to get my tubes tied have already been signed and ev

Life During Covid-19

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  Honestly, going through covid and being a stay at home mom hasn't been the easiest for me. For the most part it has obviously consisted of sitting in the house. With a lot of things being closed these days it's hard to even figure out what I'm going to do with my kids (Myles and Milanna) from day to day. Many days the kids would just run around and play with their toys, watch t.v. or try do both at the same time. Then there were the days where they wouldn't relax and would be all over me which if you can't tell is not what I like. On the warm/hot days I would of course take them outside to burn some of that energy off. Sadly though once again because of covid-19 the parks were closed and at the time we didn't have very much yard space so there was only so much they could do out there.  Thankfully, we moved mid summer. The house we moved to has way more back yard space and has a gate so the kids won't be going up the driveway and into the street. Of course

Fearful

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Beautiful Baby #1 So as I briefly mentioned in my introduction post I am pregnant with my third and I am terrified to go into labor again. When I was in labor the first time it lasted 36 hours which didn't actually frighten me because I didn't know what to expect at the time. I partially feel terrible for saying this, but I don't remember how long I was in labor the second time. I just know that it didn't last as long, it was definitely shorter than 24 hours. What makes me scared now is that I won't be able to have my mother there coaching me through it like she did for me with my other children. My mother was my rock during labor. She stayed with me the entire time. Even when I couldn't sleep she stayed awake with me all night. I appreciate her so much for being there with me. Beautiful Baby #2  It was exactly the support I needed that I believe could have only come from a mother herself. Just thinking about that kind of support and not being able to have it du

Getting Baby Girl to Sleep in Her Bed

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  Did you have trouble getting your child to get out of your bed and sleep in their own? Or did you have them sleep in their own bed from the start? Well when I first began trying to get my baby girl, Milanna, to sleep in her own bed, it was really tough. Due to pure laziness, I let me one year old daughter sleep with me from time to time and it was such a struggle to get her to sleep in her own bed every night. Putting her to bed was taking at least an hour and sometimes really all night because we (my boyfriend and I) had to continuously get up and put her back in the bed. Although some nights she did give up a bit easier and went straight to bed. At the time, I just wished that happened every night.   I now believe that I have just about mastered getting Milanna to bed. I believe that it mostly had to do with the time she woke up in the morning and the time she would take her nap. For waking up in the morning, my children usually wake up at 10am (unless it's a holiday and they s

Gender Reveal!

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  Although I already have two other children, I was just as excited to find out the gender of this baby. My anatomy appointment was scheduled since I checked out of my first prenatal appointment. Now, since it just so happened to be scheduled around the time when the number of Covid-19 cases began to rise again, unfortunately my appointment had to get pushed back an entire month! I can't lie I was pissed because I had that appointment scheduled for months and then was told I had to wait even longer. I was just excited and wanted to know right away. I also wanted to know because being the fact that my daughter is only one I wanted to know if I should keep her old things or if I could get rid of all that stuff. Actually, I was able to get rid of a ton of clothes because my brother in law recently had a baby girl. Fortunately and unfortunately my daughter has a huge family and a grandmother with a shopping problem so there's still so many more clothes to get rid of. Thank goodness

Parenting Guilt

So I recently saw a post on Facebook this morning that said: Do any of y'all moms feel bad at the end of the day when your kids are asleep and your just thinking I probably could've done more today? Like I should've played with them more. Or maybe I shouldn't have screamed at them when they didn't listen. Maybe I could've been nicer. I hate that mom guilt feeling. I don't know about you but I feel this way almost every single day. Sometimes, I feel like I'm not spending this time wisely with them or like I may not be letting them be kids enough, or maybe I let them have a little too much screen time for the day. Thinking about everything of course brings about guilt except I don't think any parent, that is taking care of their child the best that they can, should feel guilty about any of the choices they make. Each child is different so how you parent them will be different and if there is something that you did that didn't like then change it. I

An Old but New New Year

 Unfortunately, this New Year's Eve was a lot different than normal because of Covid-19. I usually spend New Year's Eve with my boyfriend's family which is what we did again this year. Of course not as many people came over so it was a smaller crowd but we still did all of the things that we would normally do. Honestly, all that means for the most part is spending time with each other and having fun. We do have two main traditions. The first of course being counting down into the New Year. The second is after the countdown and clinking glasses we make a circle, go around to each person and say what we are thankful for from the last year going into the new. I'm not sure about everyone else but I personally love doing this because and the things that I have accomplished or things that I want to do better. The plan is to carry on this tradition throughout the years so that we continually are appreciative of everything that we have. So, even though 2020 wasn't the great